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Thursday, July 29, 2004


CLICK THIS LINK

Bill O'Reilly interviews Michael Moore

...and gets utterly spanked for his troubles. Anyone who has a passing knowledge of O'Reilly knows the guy is an attack dog when it comes to interviews who deosn't let little things like "facts" or "letting the other guy get a word in" get in his way. O'Reilly went into it fully expecting to cow Moore into saying things that he wanted him to say, but instead the tables TOTALLY got turned around.

What I admire about Moore, his extreme left-wing politics aside, is how he is a fighter who backs down from no one. O'Reilly is the worst of the worst when it comes to these things and he totally schooled him. As a person who hates nonconfrontation, I really do admire the guy for being able to stand up to people who try to push them around.

Hell, he's even a BEAR! He's actually kind of cute in a super super scuffy way. I think he's going to replace Kevin Smith in my Celebrity Top 5 as the official Mind-fuck celeb. *grins*

I think I'm in love...


DARE YOU TO MOVE
Switchfoot


Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be.



HMMMMM...

cuddle and a kiss
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004

 
HMMMMM.....

Can't talk about anything yet, but I may potentially be on the cusp of some major decisions about an area of my life that is truly important to me.

I have to think.


Friday, July 23, 2004

  
PASSAGE

"well if you want to have great love,
you've got to have great anger."

- Indigo Girls, "Letter to Eve" (from Char's blog)



Wednesday, July 21, 2004

 
YOU HAD TIME
Ani Difranco


how can I go home
with nothing to say
I know you're going to look at me that way
and say what did you do out there
and what did you decide
you said you needed time
and you had time

you are a china shop
and I am a bull
you are really good food
and I am full
I guess everything is timing
I guess everything's been said
so I am coming home with an empty head

you'll say did they love you or what
I'll say they love what I do
the only one who really loves me is you
and you'll say girl did you kick some butt
and I'll say I don't really remember
but my fingers are sore
and my voice is too

you'll say it's really good to see you
you'll say I missed you horribly
you'll say let me carry that
give that to me
and you will take the heavy stuff
and you will drive the car
and I'll look out the window making jokes
about the way things are

how can I go home
with nothing to say
I know you're going to look at me that way
and say what did you do out there
and what did you decide
you said you needed time

and you had time.



 
BITTER REALIZATION
 
No matter how much you give, people will always ask for more.
 
So it's better to give nothing. That way, when you do give something, they'll fucking appreciate it for a change.
 

Thursday, July 15, 2004


THERE'S A FINE, FINE LINE
Avenue Q


There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend
And you never know 'til you reach the top
if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and APART.
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.


Tuesday, July 13, 2004


WORDS OF WISDOM FROM A GODDESS

"Basta, you and I....we're wagi: cos we've been thru so much, and don't have the worry lines to show for it!" - Nic, giving what is the best description ever of our our mutual experiences.

Profound and shallow at the same time, it is so.... US. I swear, you and me are sisters.


GIVING THANKS

One of the things I am most grateful for is my ability to love people; and more importantly, that I am able to tell them so.


ANGELS
Robbie Williams


I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we’re grey and old
’cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I’m lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

When I’m feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I’ll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I’m right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
When I come to call she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

Wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me.



LOVE IS RECKLESS
Rumi



Love is reckless; not reason.

Reason seeks a profit.

Love comes on strong,

consuming herself, unabashed.



Yet, in the midst of suffering,

Love proceeds like a millstone,

hard surfaced and straightforward.



Having died of self-interest,

she risks everything and asks for nothing.

Love gambles away every gift God bestows.



Without cause God gave us Being;

without cause, give it back again.




LIKE THIS
Rumi


If anyone asks you
how the perfect satisfaction
of all our sexual wanting
will look, lift your face
and say,

Like this.

When someone mentions the gracefulness
of the nightsky, climb up on the roof
and dance and say,

Like this.

If anyone wants to know what "spirit" is,
or what "God’s fragrance" means,
lean your head toward him or her.
Keep your face there close.

Like this.

When someone quotes the old poetic image
about clouds gradually uncovering the moon,
slowly loosen knot by knot the strings
of your robe.

Like this.

If anyone wonders how Jesus raised the dead,
don’t try to explain the miracle.
Kiss me on the lips.

Like this. Like this.

When someone asks what it means
to "die for love," point
here.

If someone asks how tall I am, frown
and measure with your fingers the space
between the creases on your forehead.

This tall.

The soul sometimes leaves the body, then returns.
When someone doesn’t believe that,
walk back into my house.

Like this.

When lovers moan,
they’re telling our story.

Like this.

I am a sky where spirits live.
Stare into this deepening blue,
while the breeze says a secret.

Like this.

When someone asks what there is to do,
light the candle in his hand.

Like this.

How did Joseph’s scent come to Jacob?


Huuuuu.

How did Jacob’s sight return?

Huuuu.

A little wind cleans the eyes.

Like this.

When Shams comes back from Tabriz,
he’ll put just his head around the edge
of the door to surprise us

Like this.

- From ‘The Essential Rumi’, Translations by Coleman Barks with John Moyne



Monday, July 12, 2004


WHERE'S JOE? NO MORE

I've finally decided on the new name for the band. I've juggled a lot of options; including picking a name in tagalog. But in the end it was simple, really. It's something I've believed in for a long time and have strived to live up to. And it's appropriately opaque and interesting enough to be a band name.

Plus, most importantly, it's mine. It has been for quite some time now.

waGi
Grace Over Karma


Pinangako ko sa sarili
Ang aking hinayang hindi na maulit
Ingat galaw at huwag magpahulog
Na sobrang bilis baka masunog

At mag-papasanay sa pag-iisa
Bago muli ibigay ang aking tiwala
Isip ko'y nagugulo
Di ko inasahan to

Di alam kung pagkataon lang
O itinadhana galing sa itaas
Di handa sa pagdating ng kay bigla
Pero salamat sa iyong pagdatal

[chorus]
Sa wakas ako ay ang wagi
Di mapigil ang aking ngiti
Lumulutang aking sarili
Sa kalawakan
Hawakan
Ang iyong kamay nananabik
Sa pagdampi ng iyong halik
At ayoko pang bumalik
Dun sa lupa
'Wag muna

Ang aking diwa na matamlay
Naibalik sigla ng buhay
Hindi na kailangan pa ng salita
Ako'y nabighani sa iyong mukha

Na parang tala sa dilim
Ikaw na lang ang nakita sa paningin
Wala man lang na babala
Bigla na lang nandito ka

Ang aking pagsamo sinta
Dahil ako'y may sugat pa
Ito'y handog para sa iyo
Ingat lang sa puso ko

Ewan ko kung saan patungo ito
Pero handa ako sa pagkatuklas
Kelan pa ako naging ganitong saya?
Isisigaw ko to na pagkalakas

[chorus]
Sa wakas ako ay ang wagi
Di mapigil ang aking ngiti
Lumulutang aking sarili
Sa kalawakan
Hawakan

Ang iyong kamay nananabik
Sa pagdampi ng iyong halik
At ayoko pang bumalik
Dun sa lupa
'Wag muna

At ayoko pang bumalik
Di na kailangan bumalik
Pwede ba na huwag nang bumalik
Dun sa lupa
'Wag muna.


Sunday, July 11, 2004


SOME CULTURE FOR A CHANGE

I regularly post lyrics for pop songs here, but I decided to bring a little more class to this blog by posting some lyrics to a musical this time. So this little ditty is from the Off-Broadway show Avenue Q. 'Grab your dicks and double click' is like the BEST lyric I've heard this year. Enjoy!


THE INTERNET IS FOR PORN
Avenue Q


KATE MONSTER:
The internet is really really great (For porn!)
I’ve got a fast connection so i don’t have to wait (For porn!)
There's always some new site (For porn!)
I browse all day and night (For porn!)
It's like i’m surfing at the speed of light (For porn!)
Trekkie!

TREKKIE MONSTER:
The internet is for porn (Trekkie!)
The internet is for porn (What are you doing!?)
Why you think the net was born?
Porn porn porn!

KATE MONSTER: Treee—kkie!
TREKKIE MONSTER: Oh hello Kate Monster!
KATE MONSTER: You are ruining my song!
TREKKIE MONSTER: Oh me sorry, me no mean to!...
KATE MONSTER: Well if you wouldnt mind please being quiet for a minute so i can finish?
TREKKIE MONSTER: Me no talkie!
KATE MONSTER: Good.

KATE MONSTER:
I’m glad we have this new technology (For porn! Oop!)
Which gives us untold opportunity (For por—oops, sorry...)
Right from you own desktop (For --- )
You can research browse and shop (....!)
Until you’ve had enough and your ready to stop (FOR PORN!!) Trekkie!!

TREKKIE MONSTER:
The internet is for porn! (Noooo!)
The internet if for porn! (Trekkie!...)
Me up all night honking me horn
To porn, porn, porn!

KATE MONSTER: That’s gross! You’re a pervert!!
TREKKIE MONSTER: Ah, sticks and stones Kate monster!
KATE MONSTER: NO really, your a pervert! Normal people don’t sit at home and look At porn on the internet.
TREKKIE MONSTER: Ooooohhhh?
KATE MONSTER: What?!
TREKKIE MONSTER: You. Have. No. Idea. Ready normal people?
NORMAL PEOPLE: Ready!
TREKKIE MONSTER: Let me hear it!

TREKKIE MONSTER AND GUYS:
The internet is for porn! (Sorry Kate)
The internet is for porn! (I masturbate!)
All these guys unzip their flies
For porn, porn, porn!

KATE MONSTER:
The internet is not for porn!!

TREKKIE AND GUYS
PORN! PORN! P---

KATE MONSTER: HOLD ON A SECOND! Now i know for a fact that you, Rob, check your portfolio and trade stocks online.
ROB: That’s correct.
KATE MONSTER: And Brian, you buy things on Amazon.com
BRIAN: Sure!
KATE MONSTER: And Gary, you keep selling your possesions on Ebay.
GARY: Yes I do!
KATE MONSTER: And Princeton, you sent me that sweet online birthday card.
PRINCETON: True!
TREKKIE MONSTER: Oh, but Kate - What you think he do . . .AFTER? hmm?
PRINCETON: ...yeah.
KATE MONSTER: EEEWWWWW!

TREKKIE AND GUYS:
The internet is for porn! (Gross!)
The internet is for porn! (I hate porn!)
Grab your dick and double click (I hate you men!)
For porn, porn, porn!

Porn, porn, porn, porn (I’m leaving!)
Porn, porn, porn, porn
porn, porn, porn, porn (I hate the internet!)
Porn, porn, porn, porn

The internet is for
The internet is for
The internet is for PORN!

TREKKIE MONSTER: YEAH!


Tuesday, July 06, 2004


WHAT IS THE SOUND OF ONE HEART BREAKING?

It is the voice of your lover, with no trace of humor in his voice; in as matter-of-factly a tone as possible, telling you that he in fact, does NOT miss you.

That is the sound of one heart breaking.

Monday, July 05, 2004


TIGER HAND BEATS PAPER

Rock Paper Saddam

Click on the link. TOTAL laugh trip.

Sunday, July 04, 2004


AND NOW, FOR SOME GOOD SONGWRITING FOR A CHANGE

This song is from Mia Ramos, one of the best undiscovered talents in the local music scene. If there is ANY justice in the world, she will get the recognition she deserves.

FINALLY OVER YOU
Mia Ramos


365 since our last conversation
i have just come to my sudden realization
listening to the music that used to remind me of you
i catch myself in midsong, singing a line or two

after 1 whole year i'm finally over you
after 1 whole year i'm finally over you

it took me some time but now i know i'll be okay
used to pray for one reprise,
now i fear your misleading eyes
it took me some time but now i know i'll be okay
one year of living lies,
now i can finally say goodbye

it was your birthday this may but i forgot your number when i tried to call
used to be automatic now i can't remember it at all
little things like that dress i hate but you found so endearing
make their way out of my life, slowly all are disappearing

after 1 whole year i'm finally over you
after 1 whole year i'm finally over you

it took me some time but now i know i'll be okay
used to pray for one reprise,
now i fear your misleading eyes
it took me some time but now i know i'll be okay
one year of living lies,
now i can finally say goodbye.



THEN MAYBE I'M NOT YOUR FRIEND.

Last night, talking to someone I thought was a "friend", I ended up having to justify myself all over again. She is friends with both brenda and me, but at this point is obviously leaning with brenda's side.

Long story short, she told me she had some information to tell me about brenda, and I asked her not to say anything, because I don't want to hear ANYTHING about it, it got to the point where I was PHYSICALLY trying to escape her.

She refused to listen and told me anyway. And to top it all off, she said, referring to the fact that I was not willing to be friends with brenda at this point in time, that I needed to "grow up and move on"

Now, where my system was once cleared of being polluted by brenda, I feel like I've been forcibly given a fresh viral load, coursing through my system. Where once I was thinking clearly, and basically functioning normally, I have been able to think about nothing but IT in the past 12 hours.

It's really sad when you are FORCED to go through your memories to see whether or not you were justified in being angry, and you end up digging through your most painful experiences and discovering that yes, you have PLENTY of reasons to still be mad.

My god, if there WAS a machine like in the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind where I could erase all the painful memories but leave the good ones in so I could be friends with brenda again, don't you think I would DO so? That would be the best of both worlds. But I fucking CAN'T. There are some things he did to me seared into my memory that I will NEVER forget, as much as I wish I could.

And the "growing up" thing? Tang. INA.

For the record, in the nearly 2-years we were together, plus the year before we met when he was single, whenever the suject of HIS ex came up, brenda could do nothing but muster pain and anger on the subject. Even after all this time, they had not reconciled, even though I had told him several times that it was important for him to do so, so he could move on. And ironically enough, in the spirit of completing whatever FUCKING circle my ex is intent on building, I find myself in the same situation.

But *I* never told brenda he was immature for refusing to do so.

Excuse me lang, but if you're going to paint me with that brush, you had better include your precious friend in there as well. In fact, I have about 2 and a half years of enmity coming to me before I even begin to TIE myself with him, so you had better FUCKING step off that judgmental BULLSHIT.

You say that you're not taking sides with either one of us, but you just HAD to clear his good name on his behalf, didnt you?

"Please, if you're my friend, you'll repsect my wishes and not tell me this."

"And if you're MY friend, you'll listen to what I have to say!"


The fuh-WHUH? Since when did friendship give one license to ignore a very SPECIFIC request to respect one's wishes, on the contrary, because of friendship, now I HAVE to subject myself to emotional abuse?

If that's how you're framing it, then maybe I'm NOT your friend. It looks to be you sure as HELL aren't mine. I would NEVER do that to a friend!! Who the HELL do you think you are???

Don't you EVER fucking judge me.


THESE ARE THE THOUGHTS THAT GO THROUGH MY HEAD

Sometimes I wish that I was the one who hurt people instead of the one who gets hurt. To be the heartbreaker instead of always the heartbroken.

I could callously raise someones hopes and then dash them on the rocks and not care. And if they didn't take it well, that they actually had the gall to be HURT instead of getting over it, I'd simply smirk at them condescendingly, shake my head and consider them immature and in need of some growing up to do.

I could dump people without a second glance and breezily make friends with them again. Because hey, I was the one who dumped them, I'm doing them a favor by granting them the opportunity to talk to me again. And if someone were to ask me to respect their wishes and not do something, I'd not care and simply do it anyway.

It's the NOT CARING part that excites me in a dark way...... I envision it to be so liberating. So... free.

I'm just so fucking TIRED of being the nice one sometimes.

I want to be the one to hurt someone for a change.


EXCERPTS

Go

In situations like this timing is everything
And I always come out on the losing end
Arriving far too late in the story
To be anything more than just a friend
Who smiles fondly at the two of you
Wishing you all the best
It's funny if you think about it, really
That's just the way my life goes I guess


sayanG

Minsan ganun talaga buhay
Di mo kasalanan ngunit ikaw pa rin ang sablay
Kutob ko wala na akong magagawa
Kasi mukha ka namang masaya
Wala nang masasabi kundi sayang
At wala nang magagawa kundi manghinayang


Friday, July 02, 2004


BABY I LOVE YOUR WAY
Peter Frampton


Shadows grow so long before my eyes
And they're moving across the page
Suddenly the day turns into night
Far away from the city

But don't hesitate 'cause your love won't wait
Ooh baby I love your way (everyday)
Wanna tell you I love your way
Wanna be with you night and day

Moon appears to shine and light the sky
With the help of some fireflies
I wonder how they have the power to shine, shine, shine
I can see them under the pine

But don't hesitate 'cause your love won't wait
Ooh baby I love your way (everyday)
Wanna tell you I love your way
Wanna be with you night and day
But don't hesitate 'cause your love won't wait

I can see the sunset in your eyes
Brown and grey and blue besides
Clouds are stalking islands in the sun
I wish I could buy one out of season
But don't hesitate 'cause your love won't wait

Ooh baby I love your way (everyday)
Wanna tell you I love your way
Wanna be with you night and day
Ooh baby I love your way (everyday)
Wanna tell you I love your way
Wanna be with you night and day


Thursday, July 01, 2004


FINISHED, OVER AND DONE WITH

Ironically, I had to be forcibly divorced from the spirit of the song before I could complete it.

WAGI
Ain Feliciano

[i]
Pinangako ko sa sarili
Aking hinayang di na mauulit
Papasanay ba ako sa pag-iisa
Bago muling ibigay ang tiwala sa iba?
Isip ko nagugulo
Di ko inasahan to

[prechorus]
Di alam kung nagkataon lang
O itinadhana galing sa itaas
Di handa sa pagdating mo kay bigla
Pero salamat sa iyong pagdatal

[chorus]
Sa wakas ako ay ang wagi
Di mapigil ang aking ngiti
Lumulutang aking sarili
Sa Kalawakan
Hawakan

Ang iyong kamay nasasabik
Sa pagdampi ang iyong halik
At ayoko pang bumalik
Doon sa lupa
‘Wag muna

[ii]
Diwa ko na dating matamlay
Ibinalik mo sigla ng buhay
Parang lumiliyab na tala sa dilim
Nabighani ako dahil lang sa iyong tingin
Wala man lang na babala
Bigla na lang nakita ka

[prechorus]
Di alam kung nagkataon lang
O itinadhana galing sa itaas
Di handa sa pagdating ng kay bigla
Pero salamat sa iyong pagdatal

[chorus]
Sa wakas ako ay ang wagi
Di mapigil ang aking ngiti
Lumulutang aking sarili
Sa Kalawakan
Hawakan

Ang iyong kamay nasasabik
Sa pagdampi ng iyong halik
At ayoko pang bumalik
Doon sa lupa
‘Wag muna

[prechorus 2]
Ewan ko kung saan patungo to
Pero handa ako sa pagkatuklas
Kailan pa ako naging ganitong saya?
Isisgaw ko to na pagkalakas

Sa wakas ako ay ang wagi
Di mapigil ang aking ngiti
Lumulutang aking sarili
Sa Kalawakan
Hawakan

Ang iyong kamay nasasabik
Sa pagdampi ng iyong halik
At ayoko pang bumalik
Doon sa lupa
‘Wag muna

[coda]
At ayoko pang bumalik,
Di na kailangang bumalik
Pewde ba na huwag nang bumalik
Sa lupa
Irog, huwag na.


As always, any grammatical corrections would be very much appreciated.

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